This Big Girl Is Gonna Do It!

Starting on Monday - Big Girls

I keep starting and stopping this blog. I get really into it when I'm on a new diet, then after a few weeks, when I'm back to my normal eating, I abandon this page. Sure, I lose 10-20 lbs, but I put it back on, with some interest within weeks. I'm a sugar junkie. And I mean junkie in a very real sense. It's a drug to me. I can't remember the last day I went without a sweet treat. But it isn't just sugar, it's carbs as well. And cheese. I look like I'm 8 months pregnant. I have front butt. I'm a size 20. But my husband and older son struggle to GAIN weight (fuckers). My younger son and I just look at food and another jelly roll appears. THEY can eat whatever they want and do. And … [Read more...]

Guest Post – Angelisa Stone

Angelisa stone

I wrote a children’s book. Not to make money. Not to get rich and famous. Not to win any awards. I did it to simply carry on a tradition that my mother started with us when we were children. I wanted more people to share in the joy of what we’ve always done, The Wishing Santa. My daughter is five-years-old. For a treat for all of her classmates in her kindergarten class, I went in and read them the book. They liked it. One boy picked his nose. Another girl stood up and showed me how her dress swirled out. Emersyn, my daughter, said the words aloud with me—she’s heard it quite a few times. But when their teacher told them that I was the writer and creator of the book, you would have thought I … [Read more...]

Monday Check-in 2-8-16

Monday Check In

Well it all caught up to me. I gained back 3 pounds in a week! FUCK YOU SUPER BOWL! Honestly, I deserved it. I didn't even bother watching what I ate or exercise this past week. I will be better this week! At least I checked in. So, how about you? … [Read more...]

Monday Check-In 2-1-16

Monday Check In

Hi! So maybe this checking in thing is working! I'm down 6.4 points total, 1.8 from last week. I'm not sure how. I guess I am being more mindful. I went out for breakfast with my friend the other day, and only ate half the bagel and didn't get hashbrowns. Tonight when my family all got cheesesteaks, I got the steak and cheese on a salad. I exercised more than usual, but only made my step goal twice :( I didn't exercise today either, because I woke with a pretty bad backache. But tomorrow, hopefully I will be back to better decisions, more water and more steps. I'm encouraged by the results! If I keep losing 6 pounds a month I'll be where I want to be in a year. Works for me! This week … [Read more...]

Monday Check-in 1-25-16

Monday Check In

I can't believe how bad my willpower is! I NEED to get off sugar, but I love it so much. I need my fix! I swear it's harder than when I quit smoking. But I guess cutting back is better than going as I was, right? So I lost 1.2 pounds this week. I didn't deserve to. I didn't exercise. I hardly watched what I ate, but I did make a few healthier decisions. Just not enough. I never get past lunch in my tracking on My Fitness Pal. Last week was rainy and cold and I was too busy to exercise. BULLSHIT. I read 3 books. I could have read them on the treadmill. I was at the computer so much last week, that my hips started to hurt when I got up. Too much of the same position. I didn't even … [Read more...]

Tuesday Check-in 1-19-16 A Waffley Week

Tuesday Check In

Yesterday was a holiday, and calories never count on holidays, right? Well that's my story and I'm sticking to it! In fact, it was a holiday weekend! My 18 year old son and his girlfriend came home this weekend for a music festival and two shows. My son is a singer/guitar player, so I spend a lot of time in bars eating bar food and running up tabs so he gets invited back (lame excuse, but I'm sticking to it!). It was a cool weekend because he had some really famous musicians come and sit in with him. Even Gregg Allman came and played at a show my son did with Gregg's son. (Unfortunately, my son wasn't on those two songs, but it's still cool). And, you know, festivals mean food truck food. … [Read more...]

First Monday Check-in 1-11-16

Monday Check in

Well damn. You'd think I'd be all guns-ho the first week and lose that 4-5 lbs first excited week weight? Um no. 1.2 lbs. I'll take it though, it's better than a gain! It's been a super stressful, stuck-at-my-computer week. I overhauled my main blog over at Ana's Attic and there was just so much to deal with! Now I'm still playing catch up. Here is my e-mail box: I have 2 books I wanted to review tomorrow and haven't even started one. I haven't done my best of 2015 list yet. I can't remember the last time I opened mail and paid bills. So yeah, I have a lot to catch up on, and the stress isn't most conducive to losing weight. Successes this week: Used My Fitness Pal 4 … [Read more...]

Happy 2016!


It has been a LONG time since I have been active here! But with the first Monday of 2015, I am ready to begin this journey again. I'm actually still about 5 lbs less than when I last tracked in February 2015, thank goodness. I have been scared to weigh myself for the last 10 weeks. Today I bit the bullet and went for it. If I can't be accountable to myself at least, I will never get anywhere. 2015 was a great year and a really bad year. My son (who is now 18) was playing in a band about 4 nights a week at various bars and restaurants. There was lots of drinking, and eating out as well as other indulgences. It was amazing to see my son play with a band that has been around for 25 years and … [Read more...]

I Hate My Body

I hate my body

It’s not cool. It’s not new. It’s not politically correct. And it can’t be overcome by just saying “stop!” I hate my body so much it affects every aspect of my life. I'm not "curvy", I'm fat. I can't embrace my "curves". When I was curvy (and I was--I had an hourglass figure before kids, now I am an apple) I did embrace it. Sure, I had a big butt, and some mean girls would let me know, but the guys liked it. I wasn't one of those girls like my son's ex who talks about how much she hates herself while she has pictures in a bikini all over Facebook. I always had a bit of a struggle with my weight, but as I've gotten older, weight won...and I have basically given up. Otherwise, I love my … [Read more...]

We Are Who We Are Guest Post by Melissa Collins

Let Love Heal Melissa Collins

Guest post from Author Melissa Collins: I recently saw a Facebook post from one of my long-time friends who wrote that her six-year-old daughter came home from school one day complaining that she was “fat.” Now, I had only just had lunch with my friend and her daughter over the holiday break and I can one-thousand percent testify to the fact that her daughter is most definitely not fat.  She is intelligent and creative, shy but inquisitive – in short, she’s pretty much a dream come true. But even if she was “fat”, would her “fatness” negate all of those things. Does being “fat” make you less intelligent? Less important? Less worthy of love? No, it doesn’t, but somewhere along the way, … [Read more...]