Super Nerd Princess Begins Her Journey

I have an unhealthy relationship with food. If this were Facebook, I’d click “It’s complicated.” I love food. I love its smell, its taste, its...ok I need to stop. Anyway, I took my kid to the park the other day and had the most brilliant idea to have my picture taken with him. Under normal circumstances, it wouldn’t be a big deal but when you’re so large you actually BLOCK THE SUN, it’s something to take into consideration. I came home and wept. Real tears. And then I ate. Why? Because food is comforting. I’m so big already, what’s the difference if I have 4 quarter pounders and a large fry? And maybe some of my son's small fry? I’m beyond help. After my self loathing concluded, I … [Read more...]

Guest Post: Things Not To Say To a Thick Chick

By Guest Reviewer, Kerry G 1. "You have such a pretty face, if only..." What, if only I lost weight? I struggle sometimes to not place my self-worth solely on my outside. Most women do. If someone's pretty, weight shouldn't change that. We all have beauty and worth that have nothing to do with looks. 2. "It's not that hard, just eat less and exercise more" Really? Wow, that never occurred to me. I know all about nutrition. And exercise. But if it were that easy, we would all be thin. But it's not. It's motivation. It's willpower. It's support. These aren't excuses, they're my struggles. I'm not dense. I'm thick. 3. "Don't you want to be thin?" No, I want to be a healthy … [Read more...]

Why I’m Chubby

I admit it. I'm not one of those people who says "I don't understand why I'm fat!"  I know why. I eat crap all day and don't exercise. Plain and simple. I go on crash diets. I lose a chunk of weight but never hit goal. Then I gain it all back with interest. Every time I start with healthy eating...number one, I have issues with number 2...haha, in other words fiber does not work in my body. Runs in the family. It makes dieting a little more challenging, but of course, EXC-- USE. What else is new? Right? Do you really want to know what my excuse is? I'm fucking lazy, and I'm happy. Yup! I'm happy! Am I happy with my body? No. I hate it. But obviously not as much as I hate not eating … [Read more...]

Guest Post by Rachel O’h-Uiginn

The Repairer: How I learned being overweight doesn’t mean I am broken   By: Rachel O’h-Uiginn, CEO & founder, Undercurrent Coaching for Curvy Gals Since the age of twelve, I’ve been overweight. All of my adult life I’ve been overweight. But since the age of twelve I’ve also thought something was wrong with me because I was overweight. I was then and still am a very physically active person, eat healthy meals, and could tell you in perfect detail about the Weight Watchers program (lost 50lbs once) and how best to train for a 5K race. Yet still, I’ve cried many times asking “what is wrong with me? Why can’t I actually lose/keep off weight?” and each time I do, I feel myself … [Read more...]

How am I Old? I Still Think Like a Kid!

Recently I went away for Wicked Girls Book Weekend, and found myself at the older end of the spectrum. What? When the fuck did I get OLD? I mean I found myself hanging out with a few girls that have MOTHERS younger than me! WTF? I'm in my mid 40s. I have a second grader and a teenager, so they keep me kind of young. Most people tell me I look way younger, but really, who is going to say I look my age? I think that having the extra fat just puffs out my wrinkles. But I'm sure my fair skin and my avoidance of sun have helped. My husband is significantly older than me, I think he looks pretty hot too, despite the hair loss. I consider us the "younger" group of the people my age. There … [Read more...]

Spanx You Very Much!

Yesterday I had a funny post on the facebook page for this blog. Kari said  "So, I've decided that getting into Spanx right after a shower should count towards my daily workout. :)" It got me thinking about some of the Spanx incidents in my life. After I had my first C-section and had to go back to work every day, I purchased some high waisted granny-panty control-type thingies. I wore them every day over my underwear. Then one day I stopped wearing them. I live in Florida. I was in sales, and it's really fucking hot to wear a non-breathable nylon tourniquet thingy. Plus, they started to roll down and I would be pulling up these things all the time. Since I became heavy, I stopped … [Read more...]

Well-Meaning Family and Friends

They love you. They care about you. They want you to be happy. They want you to be healthy. So they remind you all the time how big you are and ways you can change it. Or they tell you what to eat, or scold you when you eat. Or they hear about a new diet and call to tell you about it....daily. Or they just say something stupid, like "why don't you just eat less". My parents are AWESOME. They have been great parents my whole life. But they are perfect. My sisters are perfect too. Then there is me. I don't fit into the perfect mold. They don't get it. How come I'm not a size 6? What did they do wrong? THEY exercised and kept active their whole life. They watch what they eat (well, actually, … [Read more...]