The Wake-Up Call I Needed

Exercise or Die? The big news story in the last two days is a new study that just came out. It is a very detailed and comprehensive study that proves that being sedentary is worse for your health than smoking, having high blood pressure or even diabetes. The study also proved that there is no such thing as too much exercise at any age. According to a CNN interview with Dr. Jaber, the head of the study, "comparing those with a sedentary lifestyle to the top exercise performers, he said, the risk associated with death is "500% higher", and three times higher than smoking! "Being unfit on a treadmill or in an exercise stress test has a worse prognosis, as far as death, than being … [Read more...]

Trying to Trick Myself

Lying To Myself and Trying to Fool Myself I’m late to everything. It’s not disrespect, I just suck at time management. I’ll start getting ready 2 hours before I leave, then spend ½ hour tweezing my eyebrows while reading a book because I think I have all the time in the world. So I lie to myself. I randomly put things in my calendar 15 minutes earlier than they are, then I never remember which I did it for, so I assume all of them, then I’m late to everything. Starting on Monday is the BIG lie I like to tell myself. Well, I DO start on Monday then finish Monday afternoon! 😂. Now I am thinking of the best way to combat this. I go to my WW Workshop on Wednesday at noon. The day works of … [Read more...]

Messy Bun, Yoga Pants and Working from Home

Guess what I’m wearing? The same thing I wear every day. Yoga pants. One of my 100 pairs of black yoga pants and one of my 100 v-neck black t-shirts. We had no plans this weekend, and I honestly don’t remember the last time I showered. Ummm, now might be that time.... BRB. Ok, it’s 3 hours later and I am showered and dressed in a fresh pair of black yoga pants and a black t-shirt. Why does a shower turn into three hours? Well, shave everything and refresh the purple on my hair, a conditioning mask, then I read because I got overheated from the shower and had to lay down. Eyebrow grooming, then I had lunch and I’m back. Such is the life of a work-at-home mom. And also the reason it’s been … [Read more...]

I Hate My Body

It’s not cool. It’s not new. It’s not politically correct. And it can’t be overcome by just saying “stop!” I hate my body so much it affects every aspect of my life. I'm not "curvy", I'm fat. I can't embrace my "curves". When I was curvy (and I was--I had an hourglass figure before kids, now I am an apple) I did embrace it. Sure, I had a big butt, and some mean girls would let me know, but the guys liked it. I wasn't one of those girls like my son's ex who talks about how much she hates herself while she has pictures in a bikini all over Facebook. I always had a bit of a struggle with my weight, but as I've gotten older, weight won...and I have basically given up. Otherwise, I love my … [Read more...]

Crash Diet or Lifestyle Change?

I'm good at crash dieting. If I can lose 20-30 pounds in a month I'm all over that shit. Unfortunately I usually make it for about 5 weeks, lost that 30 pounds, then stuff my face and gain it back plus 10 pounds for my trouble. I do this about once a year. Those extra 10 pounds a year for years makes for a very big girl. 19 years ago, I lost 43 pounds on Weight Watchers and kept most of it off for 2 years till I got pregnant. To lose that weight I was obsessive. And I ended up way too skinny to maintain. I worked out twice a day. I didn't have kids yet, so counting exchanges (the program back then was before points) was kind of fun. I liked the puzzle every day of how I would divide my … [Read more...]

Guest Post: Forever Fluffy by Kari

Forever Fluffy… To hear my sister tell it – I’ve never been fat.  “You’re just fluffy” she says. I’ve struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.  I’ve ranged from a size 12 to a size 26.  During my younger years it was hard.  I was teased by kids in school, criticized by teachers, and had meals withheld by adults who felt I was “fat enough”.  In high school, I was ignored by almost all the boys that I had crushes on, called out by a dance teacher in an incredibly public way that caused me to stop dancing – even though I’d been doing it since I was 7 and loved it.  I cannot even tell you how many times I’ve been told the dreaded “you have such a pretty face, if only you’d … [Read more...]

Another Monday and I’m Eating Chocolate

Motivation? What motivation? I'm too busy to deal with the focus it takes to diet. Once again, the excuses are mounting. First, it was 3 weeks of non-stop up-all night prepping for Wicked Book GNO, then we were busy with the kids the next week, last week I didn't bother, because I knew I wouldn't stick to any diet. So once again, I'm paying for Weight Watchers and not going. Now I'm prepping to leave town for 2 weeks, following my teenage son on tour with the School of Rock Allstars, camping at a hippy festival (Gathering of the Vibes) then going to Washington DC for a few days of tourist fun. Honestly, right now I just don't give a fuck. I am what I am, and I don't have the time, … [Read more...]