How am I Old? I Still Think Like a Kid!

Recently I went away for Wicked Girls Book Weekend, and found myself at the older end of the spectrum. What? When the fuck did I get OLD? I mean I found myself hanging out with a few girls that have MOTHERS younger than me! WTF? I'm in my mid 40s. I have a second grader and a teenager, so they keep me kind of young. Most people tell me I look way younger, but really, who is going to say I look my age? I think that having the extra fat just puffs out my wrinkles. But I'm sure my fair skin and my avoidance of sun have helped. My husband is significantly older than me, I think he looks pretty hot too, despite the hair loss. I consider us the "younger" group of the people my age. There … [Read more...]

Why Girl Scouts? Why?

And I have NEVER been able to understand WHY the Girl Scouts sell cookies starting in January. Hello? I just made my dieting resolution 3 days before those cookies went on sale! They get me when my will power is the strongest! Start selling those things in  April or May, or better yet September/October and I can guarantee I will grab a few boxes, but January? No. Maybe that is their money for the rest of the year? Maybe they need to change that. Because if I feel that way, I know I can't be the only one. … [Read more...]

Wicked Girls “GNO” Girls Night Out

A weekly feature from Ana's Attic and Starting on Monday This is a new weekly feature I am going to try out here. I will post on a weekend night. I may post similar or different from Ana's Attic, depending on my weekend. This is a place to chat about, men, books, sex, love, kids, shopping....whatever. We can "weigh in" and discuss successes and failures, play games, brag about your kids, and talk frankly. Nothing is off limits! Do you have a suggestion? E-mail me at ana@34i.31e.myftpupload.com. This week, I am just going to weigh in. I suck. I couldn't even get through a week of dieting! WTF? I walked one day, rode my recumbent bike one day, and drank a lot of water and ate right … [Read more...]

Spanx You Very Much!

Yesterday I had a funny post on the facebook page for this blog. Kari said  "So, I've decided that getting into Spanx right after a shower should count towards my daily workout. :)" It got me thinking about some of the Spanx incidents in my life. After I had my first C-section and had to go back to work every day, I purchased some high waisted granny-panty control-type thingies. I wore them every day over my underwear. Then one day I stopped wearing them. I live in Florida. I was in sales, and it's really fucking hot to wear a non-breathable nylon tourniquet thingy. Plus, they started to roll down and I would be pulling up these things all the time. Since I became heavy, I stopped … [Read more...]

Well-Meaning Family and Friends

They love you. They care about you. They want you to be happy. They want you to be healthy. So they remind you all the time how big you are and ways you can change it. Or they tell you what to eat, or scold you when you eat. Or they hear about a new diet and call to tell you about it....daily. Or they just say something stupid, like "why don't you just eat less". My parents are AWESOME. They have been great parents my whole life. But they are perfect. My sisters are perfect too. Then there is me. I don't fit into the perfect mold. They don't get it. How come I'm not a size 6? What did they do wrong? THEY exercised and kept active their whole life. They watch what they eat (well, actually, … [Read more...]

How Your Body Image Can Change You

It's amazing how different I am since I became heavy. I used to be a figure skater, a dancer, I sang in a band, I was in every play. I was an attention whore. As I got older, I sold advertising, and was confident and flirted my way to be the best salesperson in the company. Now? Total opposite. I had a crazy weekend that I was in charge of this past weekend. As a blogger under an assumed name, I liked being anonymous, where nobody knew who I was and I can hide behind my computer. But to be out there and having to be at the center of things when I'm heavier than ever wasn't as easy as it may have appeared. This may sound awful, but we are all friends here. Since I was ordering shirts … [Read more...]

My Valentine’s Guest Post and Giveaway!

I am so grateful that I was invited to the Fools for Luv blog to do a guest post. It's all about body image, sexiness and how hot and sexy books can help. One of may favorite authors, Cherise Sinclair, has also graciously offered to give away one of her hot novels that feature a curvy heroine with body issues, Master of the Mountain, part of the Mountain Masters Series by Cherise Sinclair. Please pop on over there and leave a comment, and enter to win! … [Read more...]