Plus Sized Women with Average Sized Men

I'm plus sized my husband is not. Last week a ‘fitness trainer’ wanna-be model wrote that he and his friends laugh at men who have partners that are bigger than them. This really hit home for me and hurt more than I wish it did. My husband is 150 pounds. I will never be 150 pounds again. Even when we met when I was a size 7, I was 144. I was also 19 and didn’t have 2 kids and a connective tissue disease. My husband, bless him, has never said a word about my weight gain over the years. He fell in love with my ass at 144 pounds and still tells me he loves it daily, 31 years and 70 pounds later. He still lets me know he wants me. He still makes me feel desired. He still compliments … [Read more...]

Fat Shamers Not Welcome Here

More Fat Shamers Show Their Colors If you didn’t hear all of the commotion yesterday, there was a little backlash to the Cosmopolitan UK cover with plus-sized supermodel Tess Holliday on the cover. Some fitness trainer/wannabe model suggested that people unfriend him if they find that attractive. The nasty responses from people who agreed with him were absolutely horrifying. Yes, Tess put herself out there knowing there would be backlash and not caring, in fact, that’s WHY she did it. Tess Holliday has been an outspoken advocate for body confidence since she created the #effyourbeautystandards campaign on Instagram. She said she created the popular hashtag “out of frustration” and to … [Read more...]

Confessions of a Weed Smoking Mom – Guest Post by Jen

I am Jen. I am a bestselling author. I smoke pot. I am the mini-van driving soccer mom with 4 kids and I do it on the reg. I would love to tell you I don’t do it when I’m responsible for other people’s kids, but I’d be lying. High is my normal. I have smoked pot since I was a teenager and now in my mid-40s, I still smoke. Daily. I am not a hippie. In fact, I am that normal suburban wife you see in your local Kroger. I’m room mom. I’m on the PTA and the school band board. My husband coached our son’s little league team and he smokes it daily as well. He goes to work high and is a very successful accountant. We don’t drink often (maybe 6 drinks a year at most). We don’t take … [Read more...]

“Such a Pretty Face” – Guest Post by Author Amy Queau

"Such a Pretty Face" - Guest Post by Author Amy Queau “She has such a pretty face. She’d be gorgeous if she just lost some weight.” That was the first time a guy had ever given me a compliment. I heard it from his girlfriend, my friend, and I thought, “Wow. I guess that’s the only way a man is going to love me. I’d better get started.” I was 12. My name is Amy. And what I can tell you now, at 41 years old, is that it doesn’t matter. It has never mattered. I’ve spent more time trying to love myself than wishing someone else would love me. I’ve been to hell and back, and back again. I’ve spent years wishing I was someone else and then spent even more wishing I was my old self again. … [Read more...]

May 2018 Update

It has been a crazy, busy few months. I plan a large 3 day book signing in April, and my focus was 100% on that for the month before, not really stopping to have time to cook. I did some drinking and a whole lot of pudding shots, and I am thrilled I didn't gain. I have completed 16 weeks and lost 21 pounds on Weight Watchers so far. And I'll be honest. Though I am going to meetings and watching what I eat, I have been slacking on my tracking (See what I did there? I'm a poet and didn't know it!). I came back and have now been sick for three freaking weeks! I have had no energy to cook, but I'm hungrier than ever. Figures. So tomorrow (Monday, of course), I am starting again. Tracking … [Read more...]

Start of March Check-In

I can't believe it's a new month. Here in Parkland we have been in sort of a numb bubble. My focus has been on making sure these kids are heard and represented correctly. I have also been educating myself more on our constitution, guns, politics, and the NRA. The helicopters are still overhead every day as local schools walk out and march toward ours. There are new stories and new insights unfolding hourly and I feel like I can't miss a thing. Like I need to stay on top of it at all times. So my focus has not been on dieting. On top of that, Wicked Book Weekend, the book signing I work all year on, is next month. But, I have been able to stay on Weight Watchers. I am super proud of … [Read more...]

Every Parent’s Nightmare -Terror in Parkland

**Note: While this blog has been kind of dormant on and off over the years, I thought this may be a good place to post this, especially with the title Starting on Monday--we can't put this off anymore, more of our children will die. This was MY TOWN. MY KIDS' SCHOOL. I SUBBED HERE. I can't keep quiet. Angry. I am so angry. I’m sad, I’m scared. I have been crying for 3 days straight. My oldest son (graduated) was editor of the Marjory Stoneman Douglas Yearbook. My younger son will be going there in a year and a half. I have substituted there. This is my home. When I see a mass shooting on TV, I cry with the nation, but it never really hits home until it actually hits your home. There … [Read more...]

Easy 0 point Cauliflower Fried Rice

Easy 0 Point Cauliflower Fried Rice Though fried rice is most often a side dish, with enough protein (chicken or shrimp), this has now become my best cook-it-fast, easy, eat a lot dinner. I can eat a whole package myself and it's still 0 points! I keep all this stuff in my freezer, stocked up so even when I don't have fresh veggies or chicken, I always have this. You need: Green Giant Riced Veggies Cauliflower Medley (They have lots of riced veggies, but this seems the most like fried rice to me) (0 WW smart points) Olive oil spray (1-2 sprays, 0 points) Garlic (0 points) Perdue Short Cuts Roasted Chicken Breast (or any chicken breast pieces that are 0 points) or frozen … [Read more...]

Rock Bottoms and Long Hair by Author Magan Vernon

A year ago I was going to an author event and showing of Fifty Shades Darker. I had nothing to wear besides Mom clothes so I went to Target. I told myself that I was plus size and was going to just dress myself cute because there was no reason a plus size girl shouldn't be able to be cute. Then sticker shock came in as I had to buy the biggest size pair of jeans and shirt I ever had and the price was over $50. I told myself small changes, I'd be all right. I looked in the mirror and told myself in my size twenty jeans and 2x shirt that I was curvy but cute. I ignored that the jeans were actually kind of tight. I ignored that I hated what I saw. I put on makeup and then played with … [Read more...]

Week 3 WW Begins

Today was my 3rd weigh in, and the beginning of my 3rd week on Weight Watchers. The week before I started WW I did My Fitness Pal and lost 4.2 pounds. Then 2 pounds the first week of WW and stayed the same this week. It’s so hard not to get discouraged when you were in your points range every day, didn’t use your weekly bonus points or your rollover points. I’m so disappointed. I want to show a result for my work! But I will NOT get discouraged. I am “going through my changes” so my hormones are out of whack. I have eaten a lot of salt and not drank enough water, even though I am within my points range. And though I’ve added veggies to my diet, still, 1-2 servings a day isn’t enough. … [Read more...]

Scared to Weigh In

I weigh in tomorrow on Weight Watchers. In the 9 days before I started WW I did My Fitness Pal and lost 4.2 pounds. But I got on my scale today and was up .4 pounds. I have followed Weight Watchers so easily this week, maybe it was too easy? I had a good number of points left every day, and I know people say to eat more points, but I'm not hungry! And if I do eat more, I prefer fruit, which is 0 points. The majority of my points this week were spent on fats. Since I am a night owl, I don't eat until around 1pm, and 3 eggs and a slice of light toast with a teeny bit of butter is 1 point. If I want a snack, I have fruit or veggies.  Then I have a dinner of grilled chicken or shrimp & … [Read more...]

Weight Watchers…Again

Giving Weight Watchers Another Try It has been 19-20 months since I posted on this blog, and in that time, I have gained another 19-20 pounds! I was so excited to try Jasinda's plan and go sugar free. But when everyone else in the group was showing a ton of progress and nothing was happening for me, it really made me feel even worse. I also found it unrealistically hard for me because I don't cook much, my connective tissue disorder got way worse from walking, and my husband and son were still eating pizza and crap. So I've been very seriously considering the gastric sleeve surgery. I've done a lot of research, and I have seen so many successes. But what I'm finding is that those that … [Read more...]

This Big Girl Is Gonna Do It!

I keep starting and stopping this blog. I get really into it when I'm on a new diet, then after a few weeks, when I'm back to my normal eating, I abandon this page. Sure, I lose 10-20 lbs, but I put it back on, with some interest within weeks. I'm a sugar junkie. And I mean junkie in a very real sense. It's a drug to me. I can't remember the last day I went without a sweet treat. But it isn't just sugar, it's carbs as well. And cheese. I look like I'm 8 months pregnant. I have front butt. I'm a size 20. But my husband and older son struggle to GAIN weight (fuckers). My younger son and I just look at food and another jelly roll appears. THEY can eat whatever they want and do. And … [Read more...]

Guest Post – Angelisa Stone

I wrote a children’s book. Not to make money. Not to get rich and famous. Not to win any awards. I did it to simply carry on a tradition that my mother started with us when we were children. I wanted more people to share in the joy of what we’ve always done, The Wishing Santa. My daughter is five-years-old. For a treat for all of her classmates in her kindergarten class, I went in and read them the book. They liked it. One boy picked his nose. Another girl stood up and showed me how her dress swirled out. Emersyn, my daughter, said the words aloud with me—she’s heard it quite a few times. But when their teacher told them that I was the writer and creator of the book, you would have thought I … [Read more...]

Tuesday Check-in 1-19-16 A Waffley Week

Yesterday was a holiday, and calories never count on holidays, right? Well that's my story and I'm sticking to it! In fact, it was a holiday weekend! My 18 year old son and his girlfriend came home this weekend for a music festival and two shows. My son is a singer/guitar player, so I spend a lot of time in bars eating bar food and running up tabs so he gets invited back (lame excuse, but I'm sticking to it!). It was a cool weekend because he had some really famous musicians come and sit in with him. Even Gregg Allman came and played at a show my son did with Gregg's son. (Unfortunately, my son wasn't on those two songs, but it's still cool). And, you know, festivals mean food truck food. … [Read more...]

First Monday Check-in 1-11-16

Well damn. You'd think I'd be all guns-ho the first week and lose that 4-5 lbs first excited week weight? Um no. 1.2 lbs. I'll take it though, it's better than a gain! It's been a super stressful, stuck-at-my-computer week. I overhauled my main blog over at Ana's Attic and there was just so much to deal with! Now I'm still playing catch up. Here is my e-mail box: I have 2 books I wanted to review tomorrow and haven't even started one. I haven't done my best of 2015 list yet. I can't remember the last time I opened mail and paid bills. So yeah, I have a lot to catch up on, and the stress isn't most conducive to losing weight. Successes this week: Used My Fitness Pal 4 … [Read more...]

Happy 2016!

It has been a LONG time since I have been active here! But with the first Monday of 2015, I am ready to begin this journey again. I'm actually still about 5 lbs less than when I last tracked in February 2015, thank goodness. I have been scared to weigh myself for the last 10 weeks. Today I bit the bullet and went for it. If I can't be accountable to myself at least, I will never get anywhere. 2015 was a great year and a really bad year. My son (who is now 18) was playing in a band about 4 nights a week at various bars and restaurants. There was lots of drinking, and eating out as well as other indulgences. It was amazing to see my son play with a band that has been around for 25 years and … [Read more...]

I Hate My Body

It’s not cool. It’s not new. It’s not politically correct. And it can’t be overcome by just saying “stop!” I hate my body so much it affects every aspect of my life. I'm not "curvy", I'm fat. I can't embrace my "curves". When I was curvy (and I was--I had an hourglass figure before kids, now I am an apple) I did embrace it. Sure, I had a big butt, and some mean girls would let me know, but the guys liked it. I wasn't one of those girls like my son's ex who talks about how much she hates herself while she has pictures in a bikini all over Facebook. I always had a bit of a struggle with my weight, but as I've gotten older, weight won...and I have basically given up. Otherwise, I love my … [Read more...]

We Are Who We Are Guest Post by Melissa Collins

Guest post from Author Melissa Collins: I recently saw a Facebook post from one of my long-time friends who wrote that her six-year-old daughter came home from school one day complaining that she was “fat.” Now, I had only just had lunch with my friend and her daughter over the holiday break and I can one-thousand percent testify to the fact that her daughter is most definitely not fat.  She is intelligent and creative, shy but inquisitive – in short, she’s pretty much a dream come true. But even if she was “fat”, would her “fatness” negate all of those things. Does being “fat” make you less intelligent? Less important? Less worthy of love? No, it doesn’t, but somewhere along the way, … [Read more...]

Plus Sized Shopping: Where are the clothes?

As the size of America's waistlines are increasing, places that sell plus sized clothes that you can actually see, feel and try on are dwindling. I'm in South Florida. It's hot here. I don't want to wear polyester mu-mus. Also, I am fat. I don't want to wear sparkly rhinestones, big bold patterns and too-sexy clothes that call attention to me.  Nor do I want to wear grandma's polyester clothes. I just want the same clothes that are in the regular stores, only bigger! I love Torrid jeans. But the closest Torrid is over an hour from us here, so I have to order online. When something doesn't fit though, I never deal with online returns. One of the local Forever 21 stores has a Plus sized … [Read more...]