Guest Post: Forever Fluffy by Kari

Forever Fluffy… To hear my sister tell it – I’ve never been fat.  “You’re just fluffy” she says. I’ve struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.  I’ve ranged from a size 12 to a size 26.  During my younger years it was hard.  I was teased by kids in school, criticized by teachers, and had meals withheld by adults who felt I was “fat enough”.  In high school, I was ignored by almost all the boys that I had crushes on, called out by a dance teacher in an incredibly public way that caused me to stop dancing – even though I’d been doing it since I was 7 and loved it.  I cannot even tell you how many times I’ve been told the dreaded “you have such a pretty face, if only you’d … [Read more...]

Another Monday and I’m Eating Chocolate

Motivation? What motivation? I'm too busy to deal with the focus it takes to diet. Once again, the excuses are mounting. First, it was 3 weeks of non-stop up-all night prepping for Wicked Book GNO, then we were busy with the kids the next week, last week I didn't bother, because I knew I wouldn't stick to any diet. So once again, I'm paying for Weight Watchers and not going. Now I'm prepping to leave town for 2 weeks, following my teenage son on tour with the School of Rock Allstars, camping at a hippy festival (Gathering of the Vibes) then going to Washington DC for a few days of tourist fun. Honestly, right now I just don't give a fuck. I am what I am, and I don't have the time, … [Read more...]

Motivation in my Pocket

I've mentioned my ActiveLink, right? I have got to tell you, this thing is awesome. After a week of seeing my current activity level (zero, zilch, nada), the Activelink program sets an achievable goal, to get you moving more. There are 6 lights on the active link. You need to light 4 to hit 100%. Once you light up the 4 lights, your lights do a little happy dance. I can't tell you how much I love those lights dancing! I have forgotten to put it on right away twice now, and let me tell you, I was scrambling at midnight to get those lights lit up! At first, I wished it came in black, like the fitbit, because I always wear black, and this thing is noticeable in the pocket of my shirt. … [Read more...]

My motivation is sucking

I'm working on staying motivated. I did some drinking Saturday Night, (rum and diet coke), ate pizza at a concert, and didn't count points all weekend. For Mother's Day we had my favorite, Japanese hibachi. Though it's just meat and veggies, I have no idea what else that stuff is cooked in. Monday I had a peanut butter meltdown (my weakness). You would think after last week of no loss, I would get back to trying really hard to lose weight. But it's not happening. My activelink is keeping me motivated though, and I'm committing to track every bite from today on. This is a commitment. I am going every week for 1 year minimum. I can do this, even if it's slow. Even if I have a bad day, or … [Read more...]

Super Nerd Princess Begins Her Journey

I have an unhealthy relationship with food. If this were Facebook, I’d click “It’s complicated.” I love food. I love its smell, its taste, its...ok I need to stop. Anyway, I took my kid to the park the other day and had the most brilliant idea to have my picture taken with him. Under normal circumstances, it wouldn’t be a big deal but when you’re so large you actually BLOCK THE SUN, it’s something to take into consideration. I came home and wept. Real tears. And then I ate. Why? Because food is comforting. I’m so big already, what’s the difference if I have 4 quarter pounders and a large fry? And maybe some of my son's small fry? I’m beyond help. After my self loathing concluded, I … [Read more...]

Lessons From My First Week of Weight Watchers

A Dozen Thoughts About My First Week: 1: The first week of anything is easy and fun 2: I need the meetings. 3: Track Track Track, if you're not gonna track, don't bother. 4: You really can eat anything without guilt, but you may have to sacrifice other things to eat it (how many diets let you drink alcohol?) 5: The meeting leaders and staff do make a difference! When I walked in for my first weigh-in, the leader gave me a hug and asked how I did. She seemed genuinely excited to see me. The 3 women that work there are also about my age, and all have great success stories, and look phenomenal. My previous experiences had leaders that were all WAY older than me. 6: Even though I … [Read more...]

I got an ActiveLink!

I am about as sedentary as you get. I sit on my ass at the computer all day. If I'm not blogging, I'm reading. Having Lyme disease (or fibromyalgia--it's basically the same) makes motivation to move that much worse, because it hurts to move! But I can't sit around like a blob forever either. I picked up the weight watchers ActiveLink at my meeting last week. It measures your activities throughout the day with a full accelerometer. The you plug it into your computer and it assesses your day and awards you points! For me, it isn't really the points I was looking for, just some motivation. I am completely sedentary, and this monitors you throughout the day. First you wear it for 7 days … [Read more...]

Kitchen Clean Out

One of the parts of Weight Watchers 360 is "Spaces". The first thing they encourage you to do is clean out your pantry and refrigerator. Hide the good (but not good on Weight Watchers) stuff in opaque containers and have the stuff you SHOULD be eating front and center. I had shit that expired last summer! Pantry, fridge and freezer cleaned. BAM! I also went shopping and filled up the fridge with lots of fruits, veggies, egg whites, fat free cheese and lean meats. I'm doing my best to drink lots of water too. Considering the fact that I almost peed myself twice today, I must be doing a good job. Baby steps... … [Read more...]

I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers

I did it. I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers. I am halfway in between two offices. Each are about 20 minutes away with no highway and lots of traffic. I tend to be late to everything, a lot. I was late to my wedding, and the scheduled c-section for my youngest son! I have joined the one on the other side of my city about 10 times. Never made it past week 5. Either I would have to skip a meeting, or was running so late I didn't bother. Also, I was the only non-senior citizen in the room. I go to the 12:30 meetings, and they all have white hair and a cane. (I live in Florida…nuff said). When I was successful on WW in the past, it was at a satellite meeting close to home with a … [Read more...]