Guest Post by R.L. Griffin: My Fat Pants Are Too Tight!

Guest Post by Author R.L. Griffin My weight is something I've thought about every single day of my life since I was 13. Although I'm excited to do this guest post, it pisses me off, because I wish I didn't have to think about my weight.  I wish that I didn't have to exercise to stay the same weight, but I do, so that's reality.  I've always been a well rounded body type.  I competed in gymnastics from the time I was 6 until the 6th grade.  I trained and practiced at least 2 hours a day every day.  I'm an athlete, always have been.  From my years of gymnastics I was muscular, very toned for my entire adolescence.  Of course, I thought I was fat.  I wasn't.  When I hit college and wasn't … [Read more...]

The Fucking C-Section Shelf Pooch

It's all their faults, the fuckers. 2 C-sections. Now I have this THING. Granted, I'm on the fat side. But it's so concentrated in my lower belly above my scar it's strange looking! (That is NOT my belly...mine is bigger) What is this gigantic thing hanging from my body? Before kids I had a butt, but my waist was ridiculously small and I had no tummy. My mom used to have to take in my jeans at the waist. My whole family has big butts and small waists and chests. Then I got pregnant and gained 65 points with my first kid (I actually came out of the hospital weighing more than when I went in to give birth and never took a pound off). Every pound was in my stomach. For years, people … [Read more...]

Weight Debate: Nature vs. Nurture

I have two boys. One is 16, 5'10.5" and 125 pounds soaking wet. The other is a third grader, born chubby, and still is. Now if you look at mom and dad, you see the difference as well. Dad is all muscle, without an ounce of fat. He has to try to stay at 150, but often dips below (fucker). Me...lets just say I weigh a lot more. My husband and oldest son LOVE junk food, and my teen eats it non-stop. My husband just forgets to eat. (WTF? Who forgets to eat?) My little guy is not a big eater. He eats regular portion sizes. But he loves his sweets. Mr. Ana and my little guy are also the pickiest eaters ever (Mr. Ana is ridiculous, he eats like 5 things), so finding healthier choices isn't … [Read more...]

Another Monday and I’m Eating Chocolate

Motivation? What motivation? I'm too busy to deal with the focus it takes to diet. Once again, the excuses are mounting. First, it was 3 weeks of non-stop up-all night prepping for Wicked Book GNO, then we were busy with the kids the next week, last week I didn't bother, because I knew I wouldn't stick to any diet. So once again, I'm paying for Weight Watchers and not going. Now I'm prepping to leave town for 2 weeks, following my teenage son on tour with the School of Rock Allstars, camping at a hippy festival (Gathering of the Vibes) then going to Washington DC for a few days of tourist fun. Honestly, right now I just don't give a fuck. I am what I am, and I don't have the time, … [Read more...]

Monday Motivation: Guest post- Joanne, 150 pound loser!

Howdy from Florida everyone, Former, but forever, fat girl here. My name is Joanne and I lost 157 lbs., which took 3 years (it’s been 5 years since the start of this journey).…I have since gained 17 lbs. of it back, so I’m in panic mode…so I guess now I say I lost 140 lbs.….we all know how easy it is to gain and how quickly it can spiral out of control.  I’ve been working like a whore trying to lose it. It is not easy and it’s not working.  The older you get the harder it is.  I am going back to the start to try and get on track. Here’s what I did. 1)     Went to the doctor – you have to make sure the heart can handle what you are about to do to it 2)    I went to the nutritionist – … [Read more...]

Another Year Older, Another Year Fatter, Wiser, Happier.

I'm old. When did this happen? My husband is 8 years older than me, and he is in his 50s!!! FIFTIES!!!!!????? WTF? How did this happen??? When did this happen? In my mind, I'm still 21. I don't look it, I look silly acting like it, but I just can't understand how I tuned old. But I'm not old! There are people that are always old. You know those people? They could be you own age but they feel so much older. Then there are the ones that hit that mid-life crises and go crazy, and others that still look awesome, even better than high school, still act young and crazy, are cool parents, and have just settled into a happy groove. That's where I am in my life...settled into a happy groove. I am … [Read more...]

The Lies We Tell Ourselves

How often do you lie to yourself? Try to trick yourself? I can't tell you how often I step on and off then back on the scale hoping there would be a slightly different result. The other day, I forgot to wear my fitness monitor in the morning. Then had particularly vigorous sex. I was so mad that it didn't register! (What am I supposed to hook it to?) So what did I do? I stuck it in a ball of socks and ran the dryer. WTF? Who else was I tricking besides myself? I forgot about it for a bit, left in in too long and was so excited it had three lights already. Really. I did that, and somehow believed my own lie? How does that even happen? I lie to myself a lot. Like when I say I'll … [Read more...]

My motivation is sucking

I'm working on staying motivated. I did some drinking Saturday Night, (rum and diet coke), ate pizza at a concert, and didn't count points all weekend. For Mother's Day we had my favorite, Japanese hibachi. Though it's just meat and veggies, I have no idea what else that stuff is cooked in. Monday I had a peanut butter meltdown (my weakness). You would think after last week of no loss, I would get back to trying really hard to lose weight. But it's not happening. My activelink is keeping me motivated though, and I'm committing to track every bite from today on. This is a commitment. I am going every week for 1 year minimum. I can do this, even if it's slow. Even if I have a bad day, or … [Read more...]

Super Nerd Princess Begins Her Journey

I have an unhealthy relationship with food. If this were Facebook, I’d click “It’s complicated.” I love food. I love its smell, its taste, its...ok I need to stop. Anyway, I took my kid to the park the other day and had the most brilliant idea to have my picture taken with him. Under normal circumstances, it wouldn’t be a big deal but when you’re so large you actually BLOCK THE SUN, it’s something to take into consideration. I came home and wept. Real tears. And then I ate. Why? Because food is comforting. I’m so big already, what’s the difference if I have 4 quarter pounders and a large fry? And maybe some of my son's small fry? I’m beyond help. After my self loathing concluded, I … [Read more...]

I got an ActiveLink!

I am about as sedentary as you get. I sit on my ass at the computer all day. If I'm not blogging, I'm reading. Having Lyme disease (or fibromyalgia--it's basically the same) makes motivation to move that much worse, because it hurts to move! But I can't sit around like a blob forever either. I picked up the weight watchers ActiveLink at my meeting last week. It measures your activities throughout the day with a full accelerometer. The you plug it into your computer and it assesses your day and awards you points! For me, it isn't really the points I was looking for, just some motivation. I am completely sedentary, and this monitors you throughout the day. First you wear it for 7 days … [Read more...]

Kitchen Clean Out

One of the parts of Weight Watchers 360 is "Spaces". The first thing they encourage you to do is clean out your pantry and refrigerator. Hide the good (but not good on Weight Watchers) stuff in opaque containers and have the stuff you SHOULD be eating front and center. I had shit that expired last summer! Pantry, fridge and freezer cleaned. BAM! I also went shopping and filled up the fridge with lots of fruits, veggies, egg whites, fat free cheese and lean meats. I'm doing my best to drink lots of water too. Considering the fact that I almost peed myself twice today, I must be doing a good job. Baby steps... … [Read more...]

I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers

I did it. I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers. I am halfway in between two offices. Each are about 20 minutes away with no highway and lots of traffic. I tend to be late to everything, a lot. I was late to my wedding, and the scheduled c-section for my youngest son! I have joined the one on the other side of my city about 10 times. Never made it past week 5. Either I would have to skip a meeting, or was running so late I didn't bother. Also, I was the only non-senior citizen in the room. I go to the 12:30 meetings, and they all have white hair and a cane. (I live in Florida…nuff said). When I was successful on WW in the past, it was at a satellite meeting close to home with a … [Read more...]

Guest Post: Things Not To Say To a Thick Chick

By Guest Reviewer, Kerry G 1. "You have such a pretty face, if only..." What, if only I lost weight? I struggle sometimes to not place my self-worth solely on my outside. Most women do. If someone's pretty, weight shouldn't change that. We all have beauty and worth that have nothing to do with looks. 2. "It's not that hard, just eat less and exercise more" Really? Wow, that never occurred to me. I know all about nutrition. And exercise. But if it were that easy, we would all be thin. But it's not. It's motivation. It's willpower. It's support. These aren't excuses, they're my struggles. I'm not dense. I'm thick. 3. "Don't you want to be thin?" No, I want to be a healthy … [Read more...]

Bet Me by Jennifer Crusie Review

This review also appeared on Ana's Attic Book Blog. I do listen to audiobooks as an attempt to get myself up and walking, yet still reading. Well, I just ended up listening in the car. That's why Bet Me by Jennifer Crusie really hit home for me. Also, when I was putting together my list of Top Funny Happy Romance books, my research put this at the top of so many lists, so I had to check it out. The main character had some weight struggles, especially with a mother that doesn't stop reminding her! (I TOTALLY relate to this). Bet Me by Jennifer Crusie was a total hit for me. It combined a fun chick-lit romance and contemporary romance in one great book. Min (Minerva Dobbs) has a plain name … [Read more...]

Did I Just Flush Money Down the Toilet?

So I went out driving locally the other day to find a local diet center. So local that I would have no excuse not to go. Honestly, I wish there was just a Weight Watchers nearby, but the closest one is 25 minutes away. I know myself, I'm late to everything. I won't go. I've joined 20 times, and never end up wanting to drive to an area I'm never near. So I found someplace I could walk to.  It was a local chiropractor's office that used to do the HCG diet and has now moved to another program. I didn't like the guy. He's my "coach" but felt more like a used car salesperson. He talked over me. But I knew I had to do something. And I NEED the accountability of someone weighing me in. So I went … [Read more...]

What Is It About Repeating Diets?

What is it about repeating diets? I have been on every diet. I am a lifetime member of Weight Watchers from when the dinosaurs roamed the earth and they had exchanges. I was 27. I had no kids. I worked out 2x a day, and was taking the now banned ephedra. I lost 43 pounds and got down to a size 3/4....for a day. (I wasn't even that skinny when I was a high school cheerleader) I kept most of the weight off for 2 years until I had my first kid. Then I quit smoking and gained 65 pounds. I actually left the hospital heavier than when I went in, but I dropped a whole baby! WHAT.THE.FUCK??? That's when I tried all sorts of diets, I'd lose 20, gain 30. I developed joint pain so I could … [Read more...]

Spring Break is for Kids not Parents

Oh Joy. The kids are out of school for a week. It's day one and I'm already exhausted and my ears hurt. Let me tell you why. I currently have eldest spawn one in the garage playing guitar. My computer is on the other side of the garage wall. He is an fucktastic guitar player, but he is incapable of playing at a normal decibel, so my walls are shaking. It's not horrible when he is playing his regular music (thank God, he plays classic rock, so I love his taste), but the vibrations that run through my house as he plays are a little crazy. Right now, he is playing with effects pedals, so it sounds like I have whale song throughout my house. From the other direction is my youngest spawn … [Read more...]

Why I’m Chubby

I admit it. I'm not one of those people who says "I don't understand why I'm fat!"  I know why. I eat crap all day and don't exercise. Plain and simple. I go on crash diets. I lose a chunk of weight but never hit goal. Then I gain it all back with interest. Every time I start with healthy eating...number one, I have issues with number 2...haha, in other words fiber does not work in my body. Runs in the family. It makes dieting a little more challenging, but of course, EXC-- USE. What else is new? Right? Do you really want to know what my excuse is? I'm fucking lazy, and I'm happy. Yup! I'm happy! Am I happy with my body? No. I hate it. But obviously not as much as I hate not eating … [Read more...]

Guest Blog by Kelly, 100 Pound Loser

Hi, my name is Kelly and I am a fat girl. . Well, I'm not fat anymore, I've lost 100 pounds but I can still say that because once a fat girl always a fat girl at heart! I love to eat, and I love to eat large quantities! In 2008 my husband took a photo of me from behind sitting at the kitchen table playing a game with our two boys. When I saw the photo I was devastated! My ass was hanging over the side of the seat and my back looked like a football player it was so broad! For some reason when I looked in the mirror every day I didn't see how fat I was! But seeing it from behind was another story! I weighed 231.5 pounds. I was a size 18 needing to go into a 20 and wore a size 40D bra! From … [Read more...]

Spanx You Very Much!

Yesterday I had a funny post on the facebook page for this blog. Kari said  "So, I've decided that getting into Spanx right after a shower should count towards my daily workout. :)" It got me thinking about some of the Spanx incidents in my life. After I had my first C-section and had to go back to work every day, I purchased some high waisted granny-panty control-type thingies. I wore them every day over my underwear. Then one day I stopped wearing them. I live in Florida. I was in sales, and it's really fucking hot to wear a non-breathable nylon tourniquet thingy. Plus, they started to roll down and I would be pulling up these things all the time. Since I became heavy, I stopped … [Read more...]