Another Monday and I’m Eating Chocolate

Motivation? What motivation? I’m too busy to deal with the focus it takes to diet. Once again, the excuses are mounting. First, it was 3 weeks of non-stop up-all night prepping for Wicked Book GNO, then we were busy with the kids the next week, last week I didn’t bother, because I knew I wouldn’t stick to any diet. So once again, I’m paying for Weight Watchers and not going.

Now I’m prepping to leave town for 2 weeks, following my teenage son on tour with the School of Rock Allstars, camping at a hippy festival (Gathering of the Vibes) then going to Washington DC for a few days of tourist fun.

Honestly, right now I just don’t give a fuck. I am what I am, and I don’t have the time, energy, or discipline to follow any diet plan. I’m sipping my chocolate glazed donut coffee and it’s not satisfying my chocolate craving (though it is yummy). Sweets and alcohol have been shouting my name like crazy this month. I haven’t gained weight, but damn, I’m certainly not losing. (By the way, Amazon always has a great selection of k-cups!)

I dread seeing my mom while I’m away. I love her like crazy, she is amazing, but even in my 40s I can’t stand disappointing my parents, and my weight is a HUGE source of disappointment to them. Funny, but I have noticed that that is my biggest reason to lose weight. Maybe if I learned to be happy with my weight and myself and stop worrying about my parents so much, I would get the motivation FOR MYSELF.

I know this post is a little all-over the place, but I wanted to get something posted for Monday, and check in with all of you and see how you are all doing in the motivation department. Tell me your successes, failures, or a-ha! moments for the summer so far.